By: Erin Grasse
April 22, 2014
I gave up interrupting for Lent this year. Interrupting is among my top annoyances, along with whistling and not knowing the difference between “you’re” and “your,” and one that I am extremely guilty of myself. Interrupting God is a particularly egregious problem of mine, and I came to FTE’s Leaders in Discernment Retreat with multiple manifestations of it.
Arrogance, close-mindedness, fear, self-centeredness … any of these attitudes could have easily interrupted my experience during the retreat, as vocation is both a deeply personal and scary thing. With so many people from a myriad of different places, backgrounds, and perspectives, all trying to figure out God’s unique calling for their lives, the urge to interrupt—to focus on yourself and shut out everybody else—is almost irresistible.
Yet, the environment I encountered was not one of strident, anxious noise, but of silence, and within that silence was an invitation.
Listen to your brothers and sisters. Hear their stories and learn from them. Rejoice with those who rejoice and mourn with those who mourn. Look for the reflection of Jesus in each of their faces, and then look at your own once more. Do you see it differently? Do you feel the undercurrent of God’s love running through everyone, absorbing their fears and promising hope? Do you feel that for yourself? Go back and listen again.
I must say, I don’t think I’ve heard God’s voice so clearly in quite some time.